For a while, this post has been swirling around in my head. I was reluctant to post it because I'm not sure if there are any lines I'm crossing & not knowing made me wary... however, this is a blog for Biggie, about Biggie's life & this is pretty much the largest, most significant event to happen in his brief little life since - well, since his birth I would warrant.
Momz & Dadz don't live together anymore.
Biggie, you are with your Dadz this week & Momz is missing you something horrible. I worked tirelessly last night to pull your room together at my new appartment - its not nearly as nice as your room at Dadz, where I painted the dinosaurs on the wall, chose the wood blinds & curtains, picked out the crib set with your Aunt Carey back when I was still pregnant with you, chose the crib/change table to match the shelving unit your Dadz & I bought way back when we first moved in together... I feel so bad about your new room. Its not nearly as nice in any single way. There is no amazing globe light hanging in the corner, gorgeous palm tree rooting from the floor to the cieling... the only thing that is sort of similiar is the closet organizer (Biggie one day you'll hear the story of how Momz spent approximately three days installing, ripping-out, then re-installing the closet organizer at Dadz because I kept leaving out stupid, but VITAL pieces & every time I hung something up or tried to open a drawer the whole thing would come crashing down on my 8-months pregnant body)
All of this to say that tonight is my night with you :) I get to see have you at my new house tonight. I hope you aren't disappointed. I hope you don't hate it. I hope that I didn't miss a staple or a nail or a loose screw because you will surly eat it (being at that age where you eat everything you find, even if its not edible).
Biggie I am so excited to see you tonight. I miss you.