its been more in the last week that people have asked me "why do you continue blogging given what you're going through?" and to those people i have consistently said "because i have done nothing wrong, am not ashamed of who i am and am proud of the life i am trying to build" and i also say "because it makes me money and i don't have time for a second job" (and by me, i actually mean liam because all the profits from this blog go into a bank account for his education) awe i know, right? i'm a good momma (or at least i am trying very hard to be).
every now and then, in my darker moments, i can't help but wonder if these people are right. if i should still be blogging... if, by blogging, i'm not adding flames to the fire. cannon to the fodder. press to the CNN news reel that is my drama-life.
then, just when i've made the choice to delete my blog and call it a day, someone comes along who tickles me right in the back of the knees and makes me laugh and i remember why it is that i LOVE to do this.
my readers. i do this because i love my readers and have the best, most intelligent, prettiest, sweetest readers a lame canadian blogger with fake boobs could ever have. i love interacting with you, reading your comments, building friendships with people who live thousands on thousands of miles away, reading about your own lives, twittering with you. i just love everything about all of my readers.
like Never Clever, who gave me a blog award called
according to her sassy post:
This award is for those who use the lemons in their lives to make lemonade, or who help do the same for others.
wow.
my girl - Never Clever - there is absolutely no way you could've known just how shitty my day was or how much i needed an emotional boost. its small acts like yours that prove to me god is watching over me and that i am never (no matter how much it feels like it) alone in any of this. thanks for bigging me up when i needed it the most xoxo
9 fabulous comments, click to add yours!:
Wow! Who knew that something made from pixels could be so heartwarming.. LOL I kid of course! Glad you didn't delete yo blog, and don't ever do it, cuz I said so. ;)
Besides I think I'd miss ya a bit to much if ya did.
You are so very welcome! I am glad to make your day a little brighter.
I think you pretty much rock along with your blog.
I thought that the award suited you well :)
chica i know right? its funny how life works out like that sometimes
neverclever thanks again :) it really meant a lot to me. staying positive is hard sometimes but its so much easier than being angry all the time. that takes way too much effort xoxo
& i think you both rock pretty hard too
I only recently started reading you, don't stop now!
Good for you!! Congrats on the award and you hang in there.
Blogging is like therapy.
Stick to it and don't let it go...
I love your blog! You make laugh :) I need that
Take Care Jennerific! YOU are the best!
CAT
Oh Honey, don't you be disappearing on us! There are far too few people who tell it like it is.
The internet is a breeding ground for people who want to present their perfect selves, with all the mistakes and humanity blurred out.
I am shabby round the edges, and proud to be so. If you are willing to go out there and say 'You know what, lifew ain't always roses', that makes you AWESOME!
i wish i could more 'free' than i have been. i am sick of holding back out of consideration for my ex & his family. however, its not in my belief system to air dirty laundry publicly which is why i'll continue to hold back about most of the truly awful things. in private however... that's a different story...
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